Im back people . Im alive :)

Thank you for making me laugh again , family , friends and love (:

Assamualaikum .

Hey ! Hey ! Im back .

Okay , blog dah bersawang , berusang . Aku mengaku . Memang malas lah sangat nak update . Even sometimes , i dont even have the urge to even log in my blogspot account . Apatah lagi nak update kan ?

Dan memandangkan im on holidays right now , Yeaah baby ! Its semester break . So i guess i have to do something with my deary blog . Guys ! Im done with part 1 UiTM pre law . dang ! part 2 is waiting . Hui hui . Im glad that im still alive after all those months . Pehh .

Kepada kawan kawan dan teman teman yang baca my previous2 entry , mesti nampak aku macam seksa sangat ja dok kat Merbok tu kan . Actually , im doing okay people . That place taught me how to live a liltle bit stronger and make every moment worth . Im getting better . Insyallah :)

And i lost my phone . haha . Practically lost but actually i drop it on public toilet bowl ? HAHA . Yes i did . NO ! im not texting in the toilet . the phone just drop itself in there -.-' Barang yang lepas jangan dikenang . RIP ( NokiaC7 Dec 2010 - Sept 2011 )

p/s: Btw im thinking about switching to DIGI , what do you think ? Aaa . Maxis macam tah hapa hapa nowdays . Erk .

HOW im gonna spent my freaking short sem break ?

- Family family quality time . Going to Kl soon , huih rindu semua .

- MUET preparation , at least band 4 to persue degree in law , hurm .

- Blog make over . Need a help on this . Blog ni dah lama . Boring . Kena touch up sikit sini sana.

- Having private time with my long lost guitar . gotta work things out . we need to get more intimate baby , bukan setakat cikai2 boleh main 1 2 lagu ja . tak komited langsung aku ni .

- Lost weight ? such a LAME STATEMENT . aku rasa most of my entry ada pasal ini . hehe . kita cuba ok ? after puasa hari tu i lost some . but then during exam week , i gain some . and thats mean i dont loose any kilos pun la kan ? choii .

- Time for mending my heart / attitudes / life .

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Selemah - lemah manusia .

Aku cuba mencari ruang dan waktu lagi untuk menulis ,

setiap kali aku cuba untuk menaip , gagal , otok kosong .

Tapi pagi ni aku rasa aku lemah sangat , aku perlu menulis .

Kelas terpaksa dikorban buat pagi ni , demam . Masih demam .

Sampai aku sendiri rungsing , apa yang hendak disakitkan lagi ?

Pada saat dan tika ini , aku sedar orang yang aku perlukan , yang amat perlukan .

Wajah - wajah mereka jelas dalam legar mindaku sekarang .

Mama , mama , abah , abang abang , kakak ,

Kali ini rindu aku berbeza , rasanya seperti lebih mendalam , lebih perih ,

Hendak sahaja aku berputus asa , hanya mereka membuat aku terus berdiri .

Mara ke depan .

Bukan aku terlalu benci tempat ini namun

Terlalu banyak kesilapan yang telah aku lakukan .

Aku terjatuh , tersungkur di sini , Ku gagahi untuk bangun .

Wajah - wajah asing kini sudah menjadi sebahagian hidupku .

Aneh , aku sendiri aneh kenapa begitu pantas aku membuka hati aku untuk orang asing .

Aku rindu wajah - wajah lama yang banyak aku sakiti , aku endahkan .

Hanya kerinduan dan kemaafan mengiringi coretan aku kali ni .

Aku perlukan mereka di setiap jatuh bangun aku .

Kerana aku tahu mereka juga perlukan aku .

Mama , your lil daughter needs you in every move she make , tho she may seems not to care but you are her inspiration , her guidance , her crying shoulder .

Abah , your lil baby here really miss you , tho she may ignore your call / sms , she's misssing you , miss her abah . Her soft spot . You are the men of her life .

Abang abang & kakak kakak , your annoying lil sister here really needs her lifetime supporterss . Whenever she's down , you guys are her motivation . She love you guys so much . Sorry if she never listen to your advice .

Soulmates , bestfriends , too many to mention here but your complicated bestfriend named FYNA still need you guys the most . Sorry if she's too busy with her complicated life . But nothing can replace you guys in her heart . It wouldnt be the same here . Please be there for her .

Aku yang merendah diri ,

Syarafina Shahruddin .

Ini coretan seorang anak , adik , sahabat .